My Journey

I'm not Handicapped, I'm Handicapable.
(and no i didnt get that from due date lol)

I left home and drove from nj to california in search of an independent life and safe access to my medicine* so i can live. It's been an interesting journey, lots of ups, lots of downs, and even though I am now weaker than ever...nothing will ever stop me from living my dream, regardless of how long I get to live.

Life is too precious and short to waste time. And I'm Ready.

The three videos below are before and after i left nj, an interview with the Washington Post during my road trip, some audition, and one other one hahaha idk i didnt set up the web site, im kinda lost there :P below that are blog entries! thank you!

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Help to save Mikey's life

As you know, Mikey has always been able to smile through the pain, no matter what, until recently. The pain in his stomach is now worse than ever and has led to an inability to eat, causing rapid weight loss. At 6'1", he's a meager 75 lbs and dropping fast. It's getting more difficult for Mikey to smile through the pain and fear.

One of the only places where Mikey can get help is the MAYO clinic in Minnesota. There, a team of specialized doctors will work together to figure out how his illnesses affect each other and can be treated to restore health and balance to his body so he can keep living his incredible life.

All of this obviously comes with a large amount of costs, which can only be covered with the help and donations of as many people as possible – even if it's just a dollar. Please click on one of the two following links to access the crowd funding campaigns that will help Mikey get better. Thank you!


the last week kinda flew by for me, i have had a tot on my mind (probably a product of turning 25). The real issue is my strength. I left November 28th from home, and since then i have used and abused my body (not with drugs, just a whole Lotta life). My body weakens even faster if i use my muscles, the corny joke, 'the more you use it, the more you lose it' actually applies to me haha. HOWEVER.. i dont listen because i like to live. A lot.

I need to decide how to use up the last bit of my driving strength. I do have to give it up soon, it sucks but ce la vie! at least i drove it for a few years...and did some donuts or doughnuts or however u spell it. Life doesn't end for me when i cant drive anymore, it just changes. BUT before it changes i want to do it up to the max. So this south America trip, which everyone keeps telling me is dangerous, is kinda what i would really like to do. Thousands would be needed for the van, and even more thousands for the computers to be looked at in the van...kinda hard when income in not allowed by the US government. So i need to make really good Friends with a mechanic.. or sell out and call MTV to see if they will "pimp" my ride......haha yeah right, NOT! I haven't watched TV in months and its been the best thing i have ever done for myself... I RECOMMEND IT!! It sucks your soul... go out instead!

I have not put out any video's lately, its because of how sick and ouchy i've felt. Sitting at a computer is really the last way i like to spend any of my time. I enjoy going out to shows, movies, out with people, and nature! The computer keeps my idle. Which is why after i post this im going to the beach! Besides, you can see wayyy more beautiful girls at the beach then you can actually talk to them... in the real world ;)

So many things to do, i need to edit, i need to take care of mail, i have to do laundry, i have to organize, i gotta eat, and shower, and re-do the website, and literally there are too many to think about without losing my mind. SO.. one thing at a time, first thing first, to medicate, because i feel like poop on a stick.

I hope everyone had a wonderful "excuse to get get drunk" day. Nobody really gives a crap about St. Patrick.. but i guess the world needs one more reason to put one down. I say put it down and pour yourself a tall glass of confidence and self esteem. Or drink it up, just dont drive or have something important to do. The other day i needed help off the crapper and a friend of mine passed out drunk in the other room, right after i managed to get myself on the throne and right after he said he could help me. I sat there for about 20 minutes yelling his name and calling his cell phone (he was out cold) then i got impatient. I then slid onto the floor and crawled and inched my way over to him from the bathroom to the living room in an attempt to wake him up. I finally get there and had to kick and punch him for another 15 minutes to wake him up so he can pick me up and help me get back into my chair so i can go to bed. I made a joke about it yesterday (even tho its not that funny) only to find out he didnt remember any of what happened. He felt terrible, and was very sorry when he learned what went down. I was left however was a better understanding of who i can really count on, myself. Sometimes drinking can make a person do things they normally wouldnt do (i cheated drunk, and swore it off for life because i hate what i become when drunk, cheating is unacceptable, even if drunk). What happened with my friend, it wasn't his fault, technically, but at the same time you may say it was. See I blame myself, for trusting someone who i should've known was not in the right state of being to help me. I should have just waited till morning... however something tells me if i suggested that, he would've been insulted that i was turning down his is funny isnt it?

Decisions Decisions Decisions
Peace, Love, and Respect.



Sizzle man at: March 19, 2009 at 5:56 AM said...

I think you should pour yourself a warm glass of shut the hell up...(Happy Gilmore-esk)

Mom at: March 21, 2009 at 4:58 AM said...

Your are wise beyond your years!
On average, I think, people need about 3 times your age (which is three times a quarter century) to realize the depth and wisdom in what you say!
Keep rolling sweet heart, I cannot wait for you to roll back home even if it is for one week. I'll take what ever you give ;)
Love you.

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