Loving myself

I would like to apologize for my general absence from this group among other things that I have online. Over the years I started becoming more and more self-conscious, the more online I was. I started focusing on negative criticism, missed messages on Facebook, and all the stuff I shouldn't have been worrying about. Insecurities and fears are part of everyone's lives, and I had forgotten that. I kind of felt like if I had all these issues, how can I possibly give good advice. I began counting my flaws, as opposed to realizing my greatness. I have a lot of love for the world, and I'm tired of hiding it. The joy I get from helping somebody is unlike any other. And it took me receiving help from a good friend to really help me realize how I put myself down. The truth is I'm ridiculously powerful. I have always been, even in my weakest moments. I crawled back from death, a feeding tube, TPN, and now I eat steaks and sushi. How I didn't realize how powerful I was I don't know, the human mind can play tricks on us, being our best friend are our worst enemy. I am blessed I was given a good body and good mind. I may not be winning bodybuilding competitions, but I'm still killing it!! Accomplishing everything is set my mind to, and I mean anything. I've met almost everybody that I've wanted to, musicians, actors, inspirational people... But the most important person I recently met what's the real me. Someone I have been out of touch with for a very long time. I found myself overmedicating, just to kind of keep myself in that fog, distracting me from who I really am, but I am done being someone else. God put me here to make a difference, I may not know exactly what I'm supposed to do yet, but I know it involves love & the world. Starting now things will be different, and I am excited to share my love with all of you. Something magical happens when you love yourself, the voice in your head quiets down, and you may just find yourself sitting there smiling. That's what I do now. But don't get me wrong I will still have my moments as we are all human! Just remember, you are the most important person in your life, you always will be. So don't listen to anyone who tells you anything negative, because all you were listening to is a reflection of themselves. The only person that you need to worry about is yourself, and to know that you are perfect, beautiful, and amazing just as you are. Ignore what negative people say. In the end those people are very irrelevant, angry people with angry words are not worth anyone's time. So live today, don't worry, go for it, don't hide, be proud, be courageous, and be unstoppable!! Lots and lots of love, Mikey