10:48pm 2-25-08 ---I wrote this in nj long ago

why is everyone so afraid to live? im so tired of everyone going nowhere so slow. people are sheep, doing nothing but what they are told to do. following, following, following. Who is the shepherd? who is guiding this flock of geese into the fastest most self indulgent grave this earth will ever hold. whats worse, that we are born into this, or that we feed into it. allowing it to happen. and we do. so is it that.. or is is the fact that we love it, or the "masses" love it should i say. but were so fucked on a 'species' level. no other animal on earth could find a better way to knock out its chances for long term survival. we keep thinking we got smarter, why because the average age for someone to die was a lot lower back then? are you worried you might die young? hahaha you should be!! that may be the only way anyone has a chance for a life. a chance to stop and rethink every second of thier lives. if there were only 60, who would you want to call? why? what would you say. and if that moment could last longer than 60 seconds how would that effect your life. and i know, that there is more than one person we all have something we might wanna say or do something to. but we dont because of whatever bullshit reason we can come up with stop us. we'll do it later. how many times did a later never happen? and it can be a little later too. not even something important. we tend to brush off our own lives like its normal. why should anyone forget about a dream they have, why should anyone not tell the person they love I LOVE YOU!? wouldnt you want the person to tell you? damn right you would. but we dont. silly sheep. every other animal on earth fears for thier lives. thus focusus on whats important. which is usually survival and family. its a formula that makes sense!! we are an arrogant animal, we have designed a flawed fucked up system of safety and security which bleeds our souls and blinds us with a false sense of reality. We need to remember what we are. and remember whats important. and if we cant figure out whats important we at least need to realize what isn't important, and stop wasting our time.

10:48pm
2-25-08