I feel like i finally can feel the ground now. Its been a very intense few months. As some of my friends point out to me I'm not very up to date with my blog, which is true. I usually would come home at the end of the day and collect my thoughts and sit at the computer, however, with a roommate... collecting my thoughts does not happen often. Its been ever since he moved in that its not been a great. I second guessed myself first off by getting a roommate, i thought i would be doing myself a favor by getting help...instead it hurt me. I lost my personal space. My place started getting really messy and dirty, he would never clean up (now i have ants). And he left me hanging on more than one occasion. And I only say he left me hanging because he told me i could rely on him....so i trust him, then screw myself over because he is unreliable and flaky, and to be honest a little selfish. He is almost $300 behind on rent, and it's...well its near the end of the month. I think you can see how maybe this is not the greatest scenario for me to be in, which i knew...but i guess i wanted to help him out, hoping he would help me out. It was a mistake, and now its going to be corrected. He is moving out. So i can get back to managing my life. I have so much i want to get done.
Every day i receive YouTube notices telling me about people who are subscribing to my YouTube channel. The fact that i received one is surreal to me. I never saw myself making videos on YouTube before i left for California, and i certainly never thought if I did people would actually want to watch. But, it means a lot to me (thank youu!!!), which is why i cant wait to kick out my roommate and have more time to spend on the videos, and this website, which i would like to turn it into a website for awareness. Because that is key.
Between now and the end of the month, i will become progressively more and more proactive. Its funny, because i really don't know what i am doing, with anything... the website or any video i make, or even leaving NJ to go to Cali. There are hooks from the universe that have pulled me in various directions my entire life, whether it be with a relationship, a destination, a fall, or injury whatever, in every case actually.. i know that sounds weird, and believe me, it is.. i have a hard time understanding it, but that's why i stopped trying to. I find its easier to have faith in the universe, and that everything will work out the way its supposed to. I have that faith, and i trust it till the end. Because it brought me here. Right here, right now. You know some of my friends are like.... but your alone!! aren't you lonely?......yeah, i was...when i lived in NJ, sitting in my room, with nothing but a really nice collection of Alex Grey and TooL Posters. When i was concerned with everyone Else's life but mine, logging onto facebook and hitting reload 3 thousand times, completely wasting my time. Life is not in a social networking website, its in the world.
SO! this is my first time being able to sit at my computer and kinda get my thought out in a very long time so i apologize if its confusing! im not much of a writer, although i am going to begin a book. I'm gonna start from the beginning and keep going as the adventures come. Whats the next adventure.....? well first its Hawaii in June to relax, and then i am going to embark on my greatest life journey that i think i will ever experience. I am going to modify my chair, buy a one way ticket to Europe, and I'm going to find out exactly what I'm made of. Why? why not! life is short, and i love living :) I am going to put my belongings in storage, then the plan... the world. I am going to leave a few days after my sisters wedding, and have no plan to return. I'm ready.
as for my foot, antibiotics have been prescribed and i have to watch it, and see a doctor again soon to check the clot situation. right now my tummy is very angry, 6 horse pills a day is not kind on my belly, so i am going to medicate, and elevate my foot!!!
Peace, love, and possibilities, endless ones :)
Mike
PS thank you Dani and Taylor for saving my arse at caochella ( my wheelchair ran outta juice and the girls saved me :) thank you!!! <3)
Help to save Mikey's life
As you know, Mikey has always been able to smile through the pain, no matter what, until recently. The pain in his stomach is now worse than ever and has led to an inability to eat, causing rapid weight loss. At 6'1", he's a meager 75 lbs and dropping fast. It's getting more difficult for Mikey to smile through the pain and fear.
One of the only places where Mikey can get help is the MAYO clinic in Minnesota. There, a team of specialized doctors will work together to figure out how his illnesses affect each other and can be treated to restore health and balance to his body so he can keep living his incredible life.
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3 comments :
Mike,
Make sure you eat good before taking the antibiotics. Take care of your self hayaty.
I love you so very much.
Mom
Mike -- you are an inspiration. Thank you for posting your blog here for us to read. I wish you the best and am sure you'll come out on top. Keep on keepin' on!
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