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I put up with neverending pain and discomfort, smile so no one see's the pain, gladly. So they won't feel it. Because I know how sad it makes them to be reminded of the truth. Or what they think it is. Truth, I am not well. I will die. Probably soon, but hopefully not. And if so, it's been a beautiful ride. And it may be sad for some, and joyous for others. But I am ok with it. I fear not death, but an empty life. A life I don't have. I have a life with more love I can fathom. I got my idols shaking my hand treating me like family. I have travelled the world. Loved many incredie women. And to be honest, for a while took it for granted. But then I started taking my own advice. If I am ever bored, i'm not following my dreams and therefore wasting time. These rough and painful years are years I wish everyone could experience, not for it's pain, because I wish that on nobody. But because the sooner you embrace death, you can begin to live. Then the magick happens...
Thank you all, for being in the mikey movie that is my life. I love you all, except you Kat, sorry, you kinda suck. But i forgive you. I hope you learned exactly what I did, intergrity. You know she deserved better. I'm finally happy she has it. You could live with yourself, I couldn't. She was, and is the most amazing being alive, you never were as beautiful, inside, and out, as she was. She was an angel. I was lucky, and had to learn the hard way that shells like you need a filler, and you took advantage of me. I'm so glad she knows, even tho she wil probably never talk to me again. She was that important. And still is. That's what you never got. She was my love. But I'm so beyond thankful I had her in this short life. Everything happens for a reason. I just wish we (I), and I'm taking full responsibility for everything, never hurt her. I wish I never saw her face that crushed when I told her, it was the worst moment in my life besides the mistake that was you. She was my everything. And you didn't care.
Sorry, I speak my mind in case I die. Because you never know if you have tomorrow.
Love
Mikey
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