tonight is the second night in 5 months i had to take some kinda pill to sleep. I hate them tho, i usually take xanax ( dont really care how it spelled).. and ill go into these xanax modes where if im not in bed, ill like roam around, eat a whole lot, and sometimes fall outta my chair (remember pat? hahaha) good times, not really because i dont remember a single second of it. So before i go into that mode, imma get in bed, and hope i can sleep tonight. Last night i couldnt sleep. I've been in a lot more pain, the weaker i get the harder everything becomes, however also the more determined i become. Bring it i say. I love it, an excuse to live my life happy and fulfilled every day, because tomorrow may never come, for anyone actually. We only have ONE day at a time. Make the most of it, never hate your life. everything can be better, our lives are OUR lives. Nobody in the world will ever make you happy except for you, i mean, who elses job could it be? Nobody is destined to be born just to make you happy. Maybe.... but it may be for you to learn something, and it probably won't be forever. There is no forever. I may be hurting my body with everything im doing by myself, but i believe i have the greatest life ever. I am happy all day long, i get to see my favorite musicians play so often, im making music, i have friends around the world. I have had love in my life. Real love. Im lucky in every way. And i got a feeling that every day, till my last day, which better be a celebration, is gonna be just awesome. Because I said so :)
I Love you
thank you to everyone who follows me or just stops by. I feel out of touch here sometimes in LA, you keep my compant by visiting here. I feel your love, i never cared about how many people view my video's or page, life is not about numbers, its about love. for some reason, i am that lucky. and because of that i am never alone. so thank you. Jess, Cary, Jenna, Mamma Vixxxen, Mitch, Pat, Jen, honestly, i hate name dropping, but these are such beautiful people, sorry im not naming more, but the drugs are kicking in, and im gonna lose total balance soon.
peace love, and to never giving up.
mikey
Help to save Mikey's life
As you know, Mikey has always been able to smile through the pain, no matter what, until recently. The pain in his stomach is now worse than ever and has led to an inability to eat, causing rapid weight loss. At 6'1", he's a meager 75 lbs and dropping fast. It's getting more difficult for Mikey to smile through the pain and fear.
One of the only places where Mikey can get help is the MAYO clinic in Minnesota. There, a team of specialized doctors will work together to figure out how his illnesses affect each other and can be treated to restore health and balance to his body so he can keep living his incredible life.
All of this obviously comes with a large amount of costs, which can only be covered with the help and donations of as many people as possible – even if it's just a dollar. Please click on one of the two following links to access the crowd funding campaigns that will help Mikey get better. Thank you!
1 comments :
Hey Mikey - just checking in - we'll talk one of these days! I turned another year older on June 2 - this game of life is going to way too fast! Thanks for the shout-out on your blog.
Miss you lots!
Mama Vixen...
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