My Journey

I'm not Handicapped, I'm Handicapable.
(and no i didnt get that from due date lol)

I left home and drove from nj to california in search of an independent life and safe access to my medicine* so i can live. It's been an interesting journey, lots of ups, lots of downs, and even though I am now weaker than ever...nothing will ever stop me from living my dream, regardless of how long I get to live.

Life is too precious and short to waste time. And I'm Ready.

The three videos below are before and after i left nj, an interview with the Washington Post during my road trip, some audition, and one other one hahaha idk i didnt set up the web site, im kinda lost there :P below that are blog entries! thank you!

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Help to save Mikey's life

As you know, Mikey has always been able to smile through the pain, no matter what, until recently. The pain in his stomach is now worse than ever and has led to an inability to eat, causing rapid weight loss. At 6'1", he's a meager 75 lbs and dropping fast. It's getting more difficult for Mikey to smile through the pain and fear.

One of the only places where Mikey can get help is the MAYO clinic in Minnesota. There, a team of specialized doctors will work together to figure out how his illnesses affect each other and can be treated to restore health and balance to his body so he can keep living his incredible life.

All of this obviously comes with a large amount of costs, which can only be covered with the help and donations of as many people as possible – even if it's just a dollar. Please click on one of the two following links to access the crowd funding campaigns that will help Mikey get better. Thank you!


So! It has been a while, but so much has happened, well its either so much has happened or i am just tired! which i unfortunately am. Very very tired, which is weird because its a new kind of tired which is more of a suggestion from the universe i believe. My arms do not want to work with me, I need to actually move around some things in my van to make it easier to drive. I want to be 100% safe.

I have had it with my apartment too. It is very destructive to my body to be here, every time i wanna wash my face (to keep pizza face away) it looks as if i am casting a spell on my face for a half hour. Very laughable, and exhausting. So i have hardcore started the search for a new place. I have had a roommate for the past month, i haven't talked about it much, because i have been trying to figure it out. It doesnt work. For a number of reasons. To be honest, and as strange as it sounds, I was better off, and got more accomplished by myself. The ONE person you can ALWAYS count on, is YOU. I always believed that, i don't know why i didnt hold myself to it, i got a little nervous about finances thats why....But i tell you one thing, it was that little bit of doubt i had in myself that threw me off for this month. NOW, I am back on track. My life, My Way.

I have also started a new medication, for strength, not something I normally do, but im running out of steam. i will let you all know how it goes day by day, and please dont ask me what it is! i won't tell you! thank you!

I also booked my hawaii trip, and will book my europe trip within the next week. My financial troubles are still here, but my body is degressing way fast, and there is still so much i want to do. Im going to live the crap outta this life. Nothing will stop me. Thank you all for being a part of the ride :)

Peace, love, light, and Respect

ps thank you kaya
one love


Mom at: April 2, 2009 at 5:57 AM said...

Hayaty, pleae be gentle with your body. Don't beat the crap out of it, have some compassion for it ;)
I love you so very much.

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